Dark Spaces

Spiraling down My mind takes over  Truth versus lies I can’t keep going Make things simple End it all That helps nothing Hurts everyone Darkness overtakes This hurts so damn much My chest is hollow Tears soak my hands and pillow Can’t I be enough? Say you’ll come back Never leave again Terror grips my […]

Brainwashed 

Recently I’ve come to realize how brainwashed I really am. Twenty years of being told and shown a certain way of thinking has taken its toll on me.  Continually bombarded with not ever being adequate or fulfilling, learning to walk on eggshells quietly, reminders that my opinion doesn’t matter and that I am always wrong. […]

This is me

Originally posted on Sara in LaLaLand:
*note: this is a little rough, because I just wrote it. I will come back to it when I have some more time, but I hope you enjoy what I’ve got so far.? I am the monster under my bed I am the voices inside of my head I…

Dreams

Last night I dreamt you came home I opened my eyes The bed was empty You weren’t there Damn you, dreams Building up false hope Reality is where I need to live ——     ——     —— Dream state: you’re home Reality: I’m alone Dream state: you’re cuddled up beside me Reality: it’s […]

Without You Beside Me

I lay here in our bed Alone But when I close my eyes I imagine your arms around me Your breath on my neck Whispers of love and forever On my hip rests your hand A leg thrown over mine . . . . .     . . . . .     . […]

My Skin

Originally posted on Life As I Know It:
This Skin, It’s soft, fresh and new. Left untouched to this new world’s stresses. Fragile, in need of constant care. Only my mother knows this skin. This Skin, It stretches as I grow. It ages as the years pass. Still I pay no mind to it. I…

Sabotage 

When something seems to be “too good to be true” in my life, I tend to sabotage myself, causing me to ultimately lose that good thing, creating the very same circumstance I was afraid was going to happen in the first place. Perhaps I get the perfect job or the best friend or the lover […]